I love Adele , vocally she's simply flawless. She's the antithesis of Madonna or say Lady Gaga in terms of style and showmanship.
And like whenever I wanna be angry or maybe on Emo mode I just turn up the volume of my I pod and listen to Adele 19 and 21. Her soulful and emotive vocals simply takes me there lol.
she recently released her new single "SOMEONE LIKE YOU" and for the nth time i have loved that song from the very first time I heard it. The theme of the song, how it was sung, never fails to make me feel melancholy and regret.
Regret mostly because I do identify with the freakin song. For some reasons Seven years ago I met this really wonderful guy thru a gay social networking site. As how it usually goes we chat exchanged phone numbers and decided we meet as soon as possible.
The chat, the texts and phone calls lasts for two weeks then we then decided to finally meet ."BOOTY CALL ALERT" lol
We both work so after office hours was set. We decided to meet in front of his office as he said he'll be coming from fieldwork and he stays in the dorm of the government office he works at.
it was eight o'clock and I was parked in front of his office waiting, then a Pajero alighted from the corner of EDSA, And there he was looking mighty cute in his business attire. He tapped on my window and asked if it was indeed me. i let him in the car and we talked and introduced ourselves to one another, I really don't know what happened if its lust , burning desire to get in each others pants or the long talks in the phone that we had, But I guess there's electricity in the air and we kissed and groped each other.Eventually ending up in bed.
Call it whirlwind but we were so into each other that we decided to be a couple.
The first weeks was pure unadulterated passionate and really sexually charged.
We simply cant get our hands off each other to a point wherein we did it in a movie theater watching of all movies SHREK 2 LOL.
I don't know if I was really fucked up in the head, having this all around nice guy as my boyfriend but I still found time to play around even if there's this guy who actually offered me genuine Love and lots of sex at the same time.
I felt like Mr. wonderful is suffocating me or I'm just a plain and simple Slut.
Then things got awry and bad mainly because of me.
I'm not returning his calls , I Ignored him and gave crappy excuses when I stood him up on our dates which happened a lot .
Eventually we ended the affair after three months, mainly, in hindsight was all my fault.
I had always believed in the saying "don't cry over spilt milk" but this is an exception I guess .
I have constantly regretted my actions then up to now, that I had to be in a great relationship with a wonderful person and I blew it with my overblown Drama Queen persona.
A few years passed then I met him again in a mall and he's with somebody else, I don't know how to react that time.
On fight or flight mode then He smiled at me and approached me. he introduced the guy as his friend and seemed pleasantly happy to see me.
I said hi but I simply cannot bear the sight of the two knowing very well that it could have been me with him.
So in my usual evasive ways I made an excuse saying I have to meet my boss or something and hurriedly left the scene.
I actually felt a tear in my eye but I guess there's no use and He would simply be just the one that got away.....
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