GEM

I'm still reeling from the Kylie Minogue Concert in Manila two weeks ago. And while waiting for a client i happen to pass by in one of those quaint stores in Cubao that sells imported Cd's.

I know i know the new generation is more on electronic downloads but I still cherish as a matter of fact enjoys buying physical CD's.

So I was pleasantly surprised to come across a rare Kylie CD that's exclusively released in Japan.

It's Kylie Hits CD + DVD.To my surprise the contents are practically the set list that she sang during the Manila Concert except for the newer tracks from the Aphrodite album. And the DVD contains the video of all the song in the CD. And to top it all I got it for 300 pesos a little over $8 if one converts it to US currency.

Simple joys but I guess things such as this makes life bearable living in the P.I.

State Of the Nicotine Address

So PNoy did his SONA yesterday quite witty actually If I may say so.Although its bordering on a balding middle aged man's rant lol.

But then again I do have some reservations with his speech, with the country's current situation all I can say is As Long as Poverty is still In Your Face staring at you everywhere in the Philippines No Filipino President have a right to boast of the achievements of their administration...No pun intended but this is Reality....

I really cant help myself being cynical and jaded about our countries Leaders as time and again ever since I was born they never fail to disappoint me....Although I would say Ramos would be an exception(Although Ms. Defensor Santiago would definitely disagree LOL).

But heck Pnoy have 5 years in office so might as well give him the benefit of the doubt. But I just remembered Does my friend Nelly have to wait for five long years before the NAIA restrooms be improved? Do I have to wait five years before our roads be pot holes free, Do I have to wait five years for me to enjoy my drive without encountering beggars in the street. It seems so far away......

Touched For The Very First Time

Queen of Pop, Material girl, Dita,Evita, Veronica Electronica, Top Selling Female artist of all time, Most succesful Female Act Of All Time. etc....
She's practically done it all. But I'm feeling quite nostalgic and wanna go back to the time I was touched by her presence for the firs time. It was around 1984 and there's this noontime show called Student canteen and one segment of the said show is that they preview new videos coming from the States.
If i remember it right it was Bobby Ledesma hosting and he introduced this girl whom he mentioned is an upcoming artist that's very hot in the US at that time.And introduced her as MADONNA which quite intrigued me since the Philippines is a Roman Catholic country the name Madonna is only associated with the Virgin Mary and how dare this girl to use such a holy name.
the host went on and the video was for the song Burning Up.
So I intently sat to watch the video,
To be honest as a young Catholic Gay boy seeing this slutty girl writhing and prancing on the road makes me squirm and a little uneasy not to mention that my aunts were even scandalized that this girl was named after the virgin and doing all those slutty moves.
The first encounter was ambivalent actually, the song was catchy I would say but her name, her moves kinda awakened my traditional catholic guilt. But I'd have to say that the fascination started with that, And by the time Borderline was released i was hooked.....FOR LIFE.

PISSED....

I'm just so pissed with whats happening with my life. I never thought that when I reach this age I would have so many dissatisfaction and regrets. But I am still hopeful that things would turn around and Lady Luck would smile at me.
Lately I had been having a string of unfortunate events and misfortunes due primarily to my indecisiveness and wrong decisions. I just hope a year from now I will be looking back and smile and count all these as experiences on my way to nirvana Bwahahaha...

I just have to carry For tomorrow is another day......
Luv Scar.....

IT GETS BETTER ........

IT GETS BETTER ........
From someone whose been there...
And in all Aspects of Life it gets Better.......:-)

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What to do? What to do?

I'm so confused right now. A person from the past is back.....

And I don't know if i wanna let him in again. It had not been exactly smooth sailing when we were together. God please help me , On the one hand I'm pleasantly surprised that this person is back but on the other I'm afraid its gonna be another roller coaster ride...

I don't wanna feel all the shitty emotions I felt before, The disappointments and the endless anxiety over that person. But I don't wanna lie to myself that I don't want this person anymore because secretly up to now I'm pining my hopes on him...ARRRRGH

Maybe he's changed , maybe it will be different this time, But at the back of my head I'm still thinking its gonna be the same old story, a vicious cycle that in the end I always loose....

I've always said that when he comes back I will walk away just like in the song 'Walk Away renee" ,but something deep inside of me is singing that freakin Celine Dion/Patti La belle song 'If You Asked Me to" .

This is so f cking hard I just hope I be enlightened on what to do.....

CROSSROADS

No I'm not talking about setting up a Faustian deal with the Devil, Definitely I'm not gonna be killing a rabbit and cut its foot or kill a black cat and put its bones in a box with my name on it then bury it in the middle of a crossroad and trade my soul for a a blissful life for ten years then off I go with the hounds from hell as my welcoming committee to be burned in hell for eternity.....

Scary kaya yun LOL

But anyways at this point in my life I wouldn't deny that I'm not tempted hehehe

I guess when one comes to a point in ones life wherein a person starts questioning ones purpose and having dissatisfaction emptiness & job burn out one cant help be creative and neurotic at the same time on what to do next. In hindsight it had not been that bad, Some major highs and some not so low moments but its OK all in all. I would even consider meself lucky in a way cause other people had it so bad. I'm not exactly dirt poor or sick maybe with a debilitating disease but I just cant help myself to be pathetic and miserable about it. Could be mid life crisis but for cryin out loud I'm not exactly that old. Currently I guess it stems from the fact that I had been doing the same thing for oh so many years now and one just gets soooo tired of doing routine. Looking in I do have had lots of regrets , I should have done this , I shouldn't have done that etc. But no matter I have always said that things in the past should just be left there. In the past.

Unfortunately with my current state I just cant fucking help it. I know that I'm being overly dramatic about it but Hey its just me the ever eternal Drama Queen.

I'm now faced with the task on what endeavor to undertake to turn my otherwise humdrum existence around And make it a little more exciting and be more worth livable.Still lost though but I guess there will always be light at the end of the tunnel. If I can only get my flashlight running then I'll see that freaking light......